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Negative Self Talk

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 I am a powerhouse when it comes to hyping up my friends. I could tell you so many things about all of their many accomplishments. When it comes to me and my own accomplishments, I think of them as just another thing to happen. I think that is why I celebrate my birthdays so hard. You can’t deny it’s a special day because everyone has special days for their birthdays.  I went into Tuesday being late for work. It definitely didn’t start out the way I wanted it to but I chugged along. I put all of my focus in my work and ended up getting the highest score I have gotten on my comprehensive exam. The day before my actual test. That is a huge celebration.  I spent the night keeping my joy up. I went into today with a plan. I was going to get coffee and a little morning snack. I would listen to Montel Jordan’s “This is how we do it” to get pumped. I walked into the building saying out loud, “You could not be more prepared. You were so close last time with so little studying. Yo...
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Memorial Day of another kind

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Here we are, almost a year after a massive trauma in my life. He sexually assaulted me and I couldn’t do anything to take it public or make him pay. I’ve lived the last year in constant fear of running into him in our small community. I frequently stalk his social media to try to make sure we aren’t crossing paths. All of these things do nothing but make it worse, I’m sure. Today was any normal day in my family’s life. For the last several years, my daughter has participated in a dance class where she excels more and more each day. She loves the spot light and the idea of being involved in a parade makes it all more exciting. Last year’s parade was cancelled like everything else thanks to COVID so this year was a huge deal. On top of my daughter participating, my son took up Karate and wanted to walk with his Karate program as well. My ex husband and I were the lowly bystanders watching them work their magic in their parade.  Let’s flash back for just a moment to my triggers from m...
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